Step5

4th December 2007 saw the start of Series 3. One year after my father’s death the trauma of the event is loosing its rawness; the abandonment and pain. The cruel harsh reality is unwrapped a new faze of missing; tenderness and reality of who the disease is. The main approach to these canvases of varying sizes is about the painting process and the exploration into the fading memory; how memories within the trauma is dissolves, disperse, scatters and fading into the background whilst drawing up other emotions and elements wrapped around the illness, caring and dieing.

To continue to said more than words: Altering the thickness of lines, communicating honestly, specifically and directly to the viewer, positioning the viewer as the third person, using space to communicate, and drawing from memory.

Exhibition 1

The canvas work was exhibited at Worcester University from 21st November 2007 until 7th December 2007, in the foyer of the digital art block.

Samples of work can be found on: http://sites.a-n.co.uk/artists_talking/projects

There will be another solo show on display at The Custary Factory Gallery in Digbeth, Birmingham on 12th April 2008.

Step4

From the drawings Canvas series 2 where produced with colours floated into the canvas:

keeping clear communication with the viewer by:

Exploring size of canvas to compound feelings, mood and emotion.

Using colour to enhance understanding and clarity.

Bold minimal lines outline the seriousness of the situation.

Building and working into layers to uncover dissolving memories.

Step 3

From the drawings canvases where produced keeping clear communication with the viewer by:

Exploring size of canvas to compound feelings, mood and emotion

Using colour to enhance understanding and clarity

Bold minimal lines outline the seriousness of the situation

Building and working into layers to uncover dissolving memories

The canvas work was exhibited at Worcester University from 21st November 2007 until 7th December 2007, in the foyer of the digital art block.

Step 2

A further 100 A3 and A1 ink on paper drawings where made influenced by the first 100 drawings.

Further and deeper issues where explored around major operations, the process of caring and the stages of death. To said more than words:

•Altering the thickness of lines
•Communicating honestly, specifically and directly to the viewer
•Positioning the viewer as the third person
•Using space to communicate
•Drawing from memory

The process - Step1

The process:
100 A4 ink on paper drawings where made surrounding the illness, loss and trauma.
The drawings where divided in to two piles, ones that did not work and ones that did.

The pictures that worked, said more than words:
•Communicating exact moments
•Communicating honestly, specifically and directly to the viewer
•Drawing only from memory

Did you say something?

Nobodys ever tells you about the stresses of being a painter! Nobody tells you what it is like to paint fluidly for months and then to come to the equivalent of painters block, a wall. Living hell; you find yourself getting more and more stresses because you cant produce anything, you brain just will not play ball, the imagination goes on standby, there is a great big pause.........

6 Weeks of hell, total and utter hell. Sleepless nights because your stressing; stressing because the thread is lost and you cant find it! How can you be painting so well and so fluidly, then for it to disapear, how can that happen? It was all going so well! Cant meditate to chill the brain, cant eat, cant sleep, cant think straight; you become irrational because you have not slept because you cant paint, you cant think because you have not slept. It like watching a dog chase its own tail, only your chasing your own tail.

You look everywhere, thinking, where did i leave the thread? the thread of what a was painting, where i was going and what i was doing?

Then in a blinding flash of light your brain kicks into action; you hear your thoughts coming together, you relax, you breath calmly with relief. Smiling to yourself; of course you know where you was, where you left off, what you was doing and where you was going next in the painting process. laughing saying to yourself, how could i ever have lost the thread?